stayed off the wagon for a while I am up to 47 pounds. Here was my mindset this past month sweets sweets and more sweets my refrigerator was not stocked with what I needed for my diet so when that happens it is kind of hard to stick with it. so I would tell myself to just eat whatever you want and that's exactly what I did which mostly consisted of goodies. but now I have restocked my fridge with everything that I need to get back on track so it is time to grab the bull by the horns and take control again. Today is day 1 of my restart of my diet. and get rid of those sweets.

I fell off the wagon for almost 2 weeks, I had my Gallbladder removed on October 3rd and after that The thought of eating whatever I wanted without going through a gallbladder attack was quite exciting to me so that is exactly what I did. I ate anything I wanted for 13 days and gained a whopping 8 to 10 pounds back :( I started feeling so much like a failure and in my mind it is telling me that I look exactly like I did at 305 I was feeling nasty and fat oh and I was getting worried that I was not going to fit into my bridesmaids dress that I bought in a size 18 that I have to wear at the wedding that will be here Nov 8th in 3weeks. So I am starting the induction phase of my old faithful low carb diet today and will be in induction for 2 weeks just like I am suppose to. That should drop the weight that I gained back by then. Then I will go into the ongoing weight loss after week 2 which should bring me down a few more pounds in time for the wedding. By the wedding I will be in my 220's which will be great for me :)

September weigh in 231

Yes I lost 14 pounds this month I am down to 231 that is a total weight loss of 74 pounds I am loving it. :)

I have had a bit of a rough month health wise, I truly hope it does not have to do with my diet because I love low carbing. Within the past few month I have had a few really bad gallbladder attacks. I know why this last one happened and it was all my fault. a few weeks ago I was getting frustrated because of my stall that I decided to completely go off of the plan for a few days so I can restart it again and hopefully get the weight loss under control again. But my problem was when I got off of it I had lots of JUNK food. I had many hostess ding dong's and some good cookies and I just went crazy eating whatever I wanted. Well I believe by doing that caused me to have my worst gallbladder attack ever. I went to the Hospital to find out that I had gallbladder disease and pancreatitius it was bad I had to stay in the hospital for a few days to get the infections down. They have set up for me to have my Gallbladder removed on October 3rd but my Surgeon told me that in the meantime that I HAVE to eat low fat I was like I have been lowcarbing for so long that I have NO IDEA how to eat low fat. But I had to do it or I could have another attack. So I decided to get a bunch of lean cuisine meals because I saw on the box that there was not much fat in there, and I got some I cant believe it's not butter spray to put on my toast in the mornings and I bought some banana's and fruits I figure if I eat like that then I should be fine. which so far is working good for me. I told my Surgeon about my low carb diet and amazingly she said she thinks the low carb diet is a great diet and after my surgery she thinks that it will be perfectly fine to go back on it. I was so excited about that.

anyway Today I feel awesome I feel invincible I am losing weight doing my temporary low fat thing just as well as I have been losing low carb. I am now down to 234 pounds No more stalls and I can now cross my leggs lol, I know it sounds silly to be excited about crossing my leggs but I wasn't able to do that comfortably EVER that I can remember. so YAY me. I have lost a total of 71 pounds this year and I feel wonderful it is such an amazing feeling of accomplishment. I am getting so much closer to a 100 pounds loss every day. Everyone around me says I am disappearing. I am going to be skinny again one day and that is a reality to me now instead of a dream. I cant wait until that day that I can go shopping for regular clothes in any store that I go into. This is just wonderful I am so proud of myself.


Also, my bridesmaid dress came in it is a size 18 it is a little tight but I got it to zip all of the way up :) it wont be as tight on the wedding

August weigh in 245

Weigh in day. I am 245 that is 60 pounds gone. Yay :)

well it is not as much as I thought it was going to be, but I still think that losing something is better than losing nothing 7 pounds lost in a month is not that bad. I would have lost more but I hit that stall for a few weeks I guess those things are going to happen from time to time. I am going to shoot for 10 pounds less by Sept 25th

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